Thursday, June 26, 2008
I'm hurt. Hurt by the fact that my eldest sister does not appreciate our gift for her.
Her birthday is on June 10, and well, i bought jelly beans for her, since i do not know what she would like or want since i hardly have a proper conversation with her. I also bought a jar to keep the jelly beans. Of cos, the present is shared among the rest of the family.
But. When we gave it to her, she just said 'thanks' and she left the dining table to her computer, leaving the jar at the table. Wth. Can you at least be more appreciative and bring the jar along or keep it? How can you just say 'thanks', without even holding it, touching it, eating any of it, and just walk away?
Okay, that is still tolerable.
After a few days, it still seems as though she did not eat a piece or jelly bean, or maybe a few. While she was away in Thailand with my father and my elder sister, i asked her whether she liked her birthday present and she said 'umm, okay loh'.
Then i said 'noo, how can you just say that, must say you like it a lot!'
After that i forgot what else we talked about, then she said the jelly beans taste like medicine.. and she doesn't like it AND she said we can eat them if we want.
Maybe she wants to share them with us, but it feels as though she's not appreciating the gift and also complain about the gift..
If someone gives you a gift, how can you be so rude?
Yesterday, i asked her if she tried all the flavours, and she said no she hasn't. And btw, the flavours are mostly like.. fruits and stuffs, and some other different flavours. So, i asked her to try the other flavours and after she tried it, she said right into my face that it tastes like medicine. She says she only like the lime green one and we can eat all of the other flavours. And hello, there are so few lime greens since there are also other flavours.
Anyway. i was really angry. i felt like 'why did i even decide to buy a present for her?'
Ever since i could ever remember anything, i don't remember her buying me any birthday presents at all. And, of cos, in return, i don't think i bought her presents all the time.
This time, she's been so unappreciative, so i feel that in future, whether i buy a present or not doesn't really make a difference. It can just rot away.
And to think that i actually thought she would be very happy to get the present.
However, its not a waste of money. At least she eats some of them.. occasionally. while the rest are eaten by us. Its nice. I only find a flavour weird, but my elder sister likes that flavour. lol
Anyway, i just dislike not being appreciated for trying to care for her. So, i'm reallly pissed, but it'll get over soon..
IF our relationship was very close, then of cos, maybe i'll forgive her. But, playing computer ALL the time doesn't make us closer. Talking to your online friends does not make us closer. Saying only a few words to us also doesn't make us closer. You're a nice sister and all, you care for us sometimes with little action, but most of the times i just feel that you don't want to talk to us and you just want to live in the world of yours, which is mainly filled up with your com. games.
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my elder sister took her FIRST driving test yesterday! and she PASSED!(: CONGRATS.<3
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well, today i feel kinda sad, sad at the fact that i feel SOME people don't really appreciate me.
i get a feeling you're just very mean.
i like being nice to the people i like, but i'm just worried maybe if this goes on they'll take me for granted. i dont want to be a difficult person to be with, it'll just make my life and their life even more hectic. and anyway, i can't be mad at a person forever. usually in one day or a few hours, poof! its gone. of cos unless its something more serious.
anyway, i really treasure these friendships. and there's a higher possibility that we may move back after Os. ): oh well, singapore IS small.
always a twemasekian `11:37:00 pm
